so a few weeks ago i was getting ready to go to a bsf leader's meeting. it was a saturday morning and i was trying to get jovi dressed and her bed made and ready for the day for her daddy. she was particularly fussy for some reason. she kept telling me she wanted to watch a movie and i told her that we needed to get a few things done and then she could talk to her dad about it. she kept getting fussier and whinier. getting frustrated, i said "jovi, why are you crying? tell mommy what's wrong". as serious as can be she wiped her tears and talking to herself said "okay, (deep breath and sigh) i can do this". it was all i could do to keep from laughing! she was so serious and it was so sad and cute all at the same time.
my sweet girl. today was pretty good, but i got upset with her this afternoon. we were working in her preschool book and i try not to expect too much from her but she's so smart and attentive and i'm used to that now that i find myself getting mad when she doesn't take it seriously...she's 3, autumn! lighten up. she got upset and told me she wanted her daddy. she said i wasn't very nice. sometimes i am. her words...it crushed me. i am praying about this. i just feel like the change is so slow...or that i'm just not paying attention enough. i don't know. parenting is hard! i believe God equips us for what He calls us to do. i just need to believe it enough to trust it and act accordingly.
i love my girl. i feel like things haven't been the same with her since baby dane got here. not that it's his fault by any means...it's just different. we probably were headed to that stage anyway, but it's hard to see that.
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